ALMOST LOVER

mau tau lirik lagu pengantar tidur gue?this is it. berasa ratu galau haha

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

Well I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you’d want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover

Goodbye, my hopeless dream

I’m trying not to think about you
Can’t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should’ve known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images

Well I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you’d want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I’m trying not to think about you
Can’t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should’ve known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you’re gone and I’m haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you,and what am I supposed to say when I’m all choked up that you’re ok

Semacam takut kehilangan tapi bukan siapa siapa haha:))

Before I go to sleep, I always think a boy I truly care about. Yeah, I always think about you..

and baby, its amazing im in this maze with you, i just cant crack the codes. one day you screaming you love me loud, the next day you're so cold. one day you here, one day you there, one day you care, you're so unfair-JT

aku gaberani ngomong langsung ju, sini aja gpp yah. semoga sih dibaca hahaha

i keep thinking you're just going to randomly text me and tell me all the feelings you've been hiding. the same ones i have . that you remember all the cute things i did, all the stupid stuff i said. that you'll just tell me and text me i'm the one you want. the one you keep thinking about. i want you to tell me the reason you're gone was because you got scared of the feelings you had or you're just wanted me too much. just anything that wuld still give me the slightest bit of hope.

Lagi lagi rabu malem

rabu male. lagi. gue pertama jalan sama hilm, rabu malem. dia pertama kali kerumah gue, rabu malem. terakhir kmrn kerumah gue, rabu malem jugak. apa bagusnya rabu sih?hahaha ngaco-_-
oke, mungkin ini pelajaran buat gue supaya gue gak asal ninggalin orang. pelajaran juga buat gue supaya gue gak terlalu-banyak-ngarep sama siapapun dan apapun.
selasa malem gue chat sama hilm, gbs nahan kangen gitudeh. iya gue chat sama dia, seru sih tp tetep aja bikin sakitati. sian deh lo pit-_- kita ngmgn banyak hal, terutama yang biasa diomongin waktu msh pacaran. eits,privasi yah;-p
yaamulai dari situ deh gue ngarep banyak sama dia, apalagi pas dia blg mau kerumah gue. seneng sih tp yagitudeh, karena waktu itu status dia mantan gue. singkat cerita ya, malemnya kita chat lg. and then he makes me down again and again.
cape hati, tapi gue sayang, tapi dia nyebelin, tapi pgn balik. YAGITUDEH HM

"i wish i could you turn around, turn around and see me cry. there's so much i need to say to you, so many reasons why. you're the only one who really knew me at all"

gak ngerti kan kamu seberapa nyeseknya?nyesekbgt,bego. kayaknya sih gue musti move on deh tp gamau hahaha

can't you tell, i haven't slept very well since the last time that we spoke............

I do so much to try and make you notice me and make myself seem like something you would want

Captain "D" !!

hai, kalian. sebelumnya minal aidzin wal faidzin dulu yah, maafin vita kalo ada salah salah^^
h+ berapa lebaran nih? masih macet aja, bete. gue baru sempet ngeblog nih, baru sembuh dari sakit. terakhir gue check up sih kena anemia ringan. kemaren gue juga sempet pingsan di toko mas pas lagi jalan sm nyokap. asli gak elit bgt.

Hey, i wanna talk about someone. gue biasa panggil dia "captain", inisial aslinya sih "D". anaknya seru sih, baik, yagitudeh.
Pertama gue kenal sama dia tuh di bbm pas gue lagi ngerapihin kontak. gue bbm dia gini kan "siapa ya?anak mana?" terus blablabla kita chat dan keseringan chat akhirnya jadi deket. satu kata buat dia "moodbooster".
awalnya justru gue mikir gini "ada ya, cowok baru kenal tapi seru. jujur lagi". tapi buruburu gue tepis itu semua, bahaya bgt kalo jadi rasa hahaha.
Ada beberapa hal yang bikin gue heran sama dia, here is it:
1. dia tau kalo waktu itu gue pingsan dan padahal GUE GAK KASIH TAU SIAPAPUN. gak nyante woo wkwk, anak dukun kali die tuh
2. pertama kali dia bikin blog dan ngepost, postingan pertamanya itu tentang gue. padahal kita baru kenal belum genap seminggu.
3. dia perhatianbgt sama gue padahal kita  aru kenal, yague seneng seneng ajasih drpd gada yang perhatiin yakan nanti sedih hahaha.

EHM, bukan, dia bukan gebetan baru gue. Gue juga gasuka sama dia, eh gataudeh. yapokoknya dia moodbooster gue barubaru ini deh, kocak abis anaknya. he really knew me at all.

jujuryaa, bahaya banget nih kalo dia makin hari makin sering perhatiin gue, bisa sayang beneran nih gue hahahahk, tapi tahan pit die punya orang^^
eh taugak, dia lagi ngejar cewe tp gadapet dapet loh, lucu aja ngeliat dia galau gitu hehe pislop captain!

Regards,
Anak kecil gila-_-

Senior High School

sebenernya semua sekolah itu sama aja. ada nerd yang sibuk sama buku bukunya, ada segerombolan cewe cantik yang seakan punya segalanya, da cowo ganteng jago basket yang diidolakan satu sekolah, ada guru killer berkaca mata, dan yang pasti ada tugas tugas yang ngerengek minta dikerjain. HM TAUDEH
sekarang gue udah SMA yeey! tapi body masih kaya anak kelas 7 em. sekarang gue sekolah di SMAN3 cilacap, kelas X-IA2 yang anak anaknya gak ada yang totally normal. gue hidup ber-bhineka tunggal ika disana. ada yang ngapak, ada yang nyablak, ada yang tinggi item putih pendek cantik jelek kalem rame nakal cuek ramah pinter pelit baik dll dsb dst.
SEKOLAH BARU, SUASANA BARU, TEMEN BARU, TAPI PACAR BARU BELUM ADA. ini lagi deh ujung ujungnya, ah bodoamat. wali kelas gue biasa dipanggil Bu Maya Estianti, eh enggak. Bu Maya aja. Bu Maya. be u bu em a ma ye a ya, BU MAYA-_- sumpah sejak di IA2 gue jadi makin gilak, makin sedeng, makin gawaras, bukannya makin tinggi yakan.. tapi gue happybgt disini, ketawa mulu tiap hari kerjaannya. feel this moment!
eh gue udah harus pergi nih, ada acara buka puasa brg poisonic huhu cant wait to meet up with anak anak tengil ituh. another time gue sambung cerita sma gue yah babayyy lovelove in the air<3<3

A MONTH AGO I LEFT FOR A REASON

Aku Anen Amu:-(

iya gue tau kalian pasti kangen sama gue kan? kangen sama postingan galau gue yang super-gak-jelas banget buang dibaca. Dan di siang ini gue bener bener males ngapa ngapain, daritadi kerjanya cuma laying laying on the bed doang, mantengin recent update dan nyanyi nyanyi gak jelas. idiot, iya tau, idiot. 

bytheway gue lagi KANGEN BANGET SAMA HILM. gatau nih dalam rangka apa, bangun tidur gue langsung inget dia. terus gue bukabuka galeri foto, liat liatin fotonya dia terus gue senyum senyum gak jelas sendiri. tapi seketika gue sadar, dia bukan pacar gue lagih. sedih.dikit.gakdeng.banyak-_-

terus gue buka buka saved messages baru sadar kalo disitu isinya cuma smsnya hilm doang yang belum gue hapus dan gak bakalan gue hapus. kecuali kalo filenya ilang yah..

seriously, gue kangen banget sama dia. kangen digombalin, kangen ucapan goodnightnya dia, kangen suaranya. kangen goncengan muter muter gak jelas, kangen tibatiba dipegang tangannya,dan kangen pas.............. If you know what i mean,ju:-p

Kamu inget 25 THINGS I'D DO IF YOU'RE MY GIRLFRIEND gak? inget "cause i'll plan a romantic date full of things i wouldn't normally do cause i know it means a lot to you" gak? Engga inget ya? Engga kangen ya? yaudah gue aja yang inget, gue aja yang ngangenin, gapapa kok lm gapapa. santai sama gue mah (dalem hati jleg banget)

tapi gue sadar kok gue siapa. gue sadar gue yang ninggalin. kalo lo butuh sandaran hati, gue siap kok ceileh ngeri kali lo pit-_- udahan dulu deh bye, see you in another life, another time, and another place yah ju. ILOVEYOUSOFUCKINMUCHXOXO</3